Degraded LOvEs

2010-01-16T21:49:00.000-08:00

Officially moved to keeps-spinning.livejournal

2009-06-23T01:23:00.000-07:00

Why do things have to be so complicated! Argh,
its hair wrenching i swear!
Gosh!
Help me think of a nickname for barbara! ^^

2009-06-20T18:44:00.000-07:00

"The sharp, ragged edges of the hole in my chest were already throbbing, so I decided to cheat.
I rarely ever thought of him. I tried not to. Any memories I had of him ripped open my chest, and left me gasping for air. It was a crippling thing, this sensation that a huge hole had been punched through my chest, excising my most vital organs and leaving ragged, unhealed gashes around the edges, that continued to throb and bleed, despite the passage of time. Rationally, I knew my lungs must still be intact, yet I gasped for air, and my head spun, like my efforts yielded me nothing. My heart must have been beating, too, but I couldn’t hear the sound of my pulse in my ears; my hands felt blue with cold. I curled inward, hugging my ribs to hold myself together.
It will be as if I never existed.
They were just words, like print on a page. They lacked the perfect clarity of my hallucinations, but the edges of the hole seared, like it I was being dragged across a serrated edge. I gasped, trying to breath without lungs. I wondered silently how long this could last.
I pressed my face against the pillow. What was the point of trying not to think of him? The huge hole was already hurting. . .
Thinking of that, I played the hallucination I had today over and over in my head. The tears streamed relentlessly down my face, as I closed my eyes, and waited for the nightmare to begin."

2009-05-12T23:59:00.000-07:00

exams are almost over. I fell pretty sure i'm going to do well. For once in my life eh!
anw i dont really give a damn bout anything no more! just do what i want and have A WHALE OF A TIME!
Guess what, this year i have realised to follow my instincts and yea! You see when you never liked this somebody but were forced to make friends with that somebody because that somebody became part of the clique. that doesn't mean you need to make friends with that somebody. Your conscience always knows best you see! Its no point forcing youself to do things that you don't want to do just for the sake of following other ppl. Its just wrong, cos in the end it would turn out like a disaster. eg: If that person doesn't accept you for the way you are and have some problem, they become angry with you. And when that happens you dont really care cos you were forced to make friends with that person, so that person decides that not talking to you is not going to work, they somewhat make friends with you again. The first time you just close an eye and forget about it. After all it would halm the clique. But it hapens a second time. you dont want to be friends anymore but that person somewhat talks to you, you dont want to hurt the clique, you reluctantly talk to that someone again. It happens a third time, the same thing happens but now the clique members "force" you to talk to that pereson again. The forth time it happens you are so going to tell yourself no! i dont care if it harms the clique no more cos that person was never really considered in the clique from my pov.
Conclusion: whoever does't fancy you in the first place dont invest your time bothering to make friends! cfm will regret one! Amen

2009-04-16T02:59:00.000-07:00

OH MY GOD! SYF DANCE GOLD! ARGH ARGH ARGH! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! CANT BELIEVE IT. guess all the practice was worth it. ARGH HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! I'M SCREAMING LIKE A MAD PIG! FREAK! OH MY GOSH! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! SHITTTTTT!
I'M DAMN HAPPY SO I'M NOT MAD TYPING ALL OF THIS CRAP! SO SHUSH AND DONT LAUGH AT ME!
WEEEEEEEE!

2009-02-19T01:30:00.000-08:00

OK! so i thought it was time to give a little empathy to my blog and feed it with more info!
Have been waiting ages for him to just send that Hi what are you doing? or I'm bored free to message? but no! At least things are starting to fall into place! except for a dirty little monster whoes name i shall not mention to save her thick skin from more insults.
Anyway, common test is like such a disaster? If i dont pass i dont know how alr! argh! its these things that make my feel like ripping my hair out!
Leah bestie i love you! but i love my felicia more! muahaha! just joking!
A typical day in nats life,
meet weewee at serangoon mrt in the morning
train to school
eat mr bean[yummy]
go assembly
get people asking me why the hell i'm wearing a sweater
go to class...
endure HER for almost the whole day
then end of school
go eat lunch with leah denise felicia ethel vanessa shanna crystal... blah blah
train home
OMG today trained back with felicia ethel and sheri,
sheri started lauging for no particular reason
laugh like boy somemore,
i started laughing
ethel started laughing
felicia looked at us like siao alr,
then laugh so much untill i walk to the other row of seats,
ethel felicia followed leaving sheri all by herself
felicia started taking pics of ethel, damn funny,
laugh laugh laugh,
haha
then got off mrt alr, all of us tap out alr then ethel was like shit i left my wallet in the mrt,
like want to cry alr, then we go talk to the man he say will call us blah.
end of story!
BLOG UPDATED!!!!! WAHOOOOOO

2008-12-16T19:51:00.000-08:00

OMG. HOLS ARE ALMOST OVER.
Saturday
went far east with leah piere her naval then went watch the city of ember. Ate ben and jerrys while waiting for the movie. yummyyyyyy. after that went looking for present for my grand aunt;D
After that went dinner with with family for her b'day.
Wednesday
went vivo with bestie. was ment to go for chritmas shopping but ended up buying more stuff for myself then for anybody else.finally found my waist belt. ;D
Monday
Went cine with leah denise sheryl akiko and some other few guys. was walking up the escalator and kind of fell. embaressing. pulled leah's slipper down the escalator i n the process. ;D
watched the day the earth stood still. leah was totally grossed out with the stupid alien surgery thingy.
went foodcourt and ate some of sheryls super hot noodles then went plaza sing so my mum could give me a rode home. ;D

2008-11-23T18:43:00.000-08:00

Thursday
omg. yay finally got my naval pierced.
waited for damn bloody long.
friday
dance. syf so irritating la. make us come back so many times a week. arghhh
saturday
lets just put t this way.
i was rotting at home
sunday
HAPPY GRANDPARENTS DAY!!!
haha sorry i'm being mad.
went to church. sat in front of leah.
erin damn cute.
after that go ikea. walk walk. have dinner
go home.
play with my dog.
read magazine.
go sleep.
today
OMG i'm going to take my braces off today.
YAY.

leah bestie bodoh twinny girfriend

2008-11-16T17:52:00.000-08:00

leah sabo me do one hor
#1-The person that tagged you is?
er tell you alr!!! LEAH bestie bodoh twinny girlfriend la.
#2-For people who care and like you,say something to them.
i dont mean to get vulgar and all but i love you fcuking loads too. :)
#3-Pass this quiz to 10 ppl you wish to know how they feel about.
1.leah
2.shanna
3.crystal
4.clarissa
5.melissa
6.denise
7.joyce
8.sheryl
9.alison
10.nicole
#4-Who is number 6 having a relationship with?
depends. if family then her daddy mummy. if friends then me lor... :)
#5-If number 7 and number 10 were together would that be a good thing?
excuse me they dun even know each other and they are not lesbians.:)
#6-What is number 2 studying about?
that one ah? never study one! and now abit holiday time hor!
#7-When was the last time you had a chat with number 3?
hais. that one lost my freaking number so i ask her go find back first. ;D
#8-What kind of music does number 8 like?
er songs that have a tune. come on. it wouldn't be calles songs if it was monotone right??
#9-Does number 1 have any siblings?
yea 2 sisters. oh and one of them i freaking cute. eh leah don't be angry hor. you also very cute :D
#10-Will you woo number 3?
why the hell would i woo my twin. it is the same as wooing myself right?!?!?!
#11-How bout number 7?
aiyo. she my gan baobei. wooed alr la pls. :D
#12-Is number 4 single?
erm. go read #1. i told you she is currently having a relationship with me. :D not in the lesbian way tho. ;D
#13-What is the surname of number 5?
my cousin... LIM
#14-What is a hobby of number 10?
drawing. what do you expect from sota eh?
#15-Do number 5 and number 9 get along well?
one lives in bedok. the other in serangoon. they dun even know each other la pls. :D
#16-Where is number 2 studying at?
more like where is she ment to study. st josephs convent. but go there also never study lor.
#17-Where does number 9 live?
er tell you alr. pay more attention pls.
#18-What colour does number 4 like?
erm not sure. i will ask her next time k? :)
#19-What is number 10 doing now?
no idea. why don't you ask her. it will surely save me the trouble. :D
omg my hand tired alr. BYE

2008-11-03T23:15:00.000-08:00

HI(: Leah here.
im here to fix my bestie bodoh twinneh girlfriends blog :B
Apparently she kinda put a PICTURE here
which totally doesnt belong.so i took it off :D
LOLS.
& yes i fixed her blog alr so yeah i should probably go now{:

oh. I LOVEEEEEEE YOU NATALIE! :D x3.

♥Leah[:

2008-11-03T16:46:00.000-08:00

School hols rock your socks off!
But apparently some cca has to practice for some syf
its burning my whole hols man!
Anyway seriously i have nothing to say cos my mum dun let me go out arghhhhhh!
Why?
cos she sick
no link right
Sorry guys i missed the party
really wanted to come!
i try post more often alr k?

2008-10-11T04:21:00.000-07:00

HAPPY B'DAY DENISE. hope you likes the pressie
Friday 10th Oct
Sciene paper. totally cmi for can make it and also cannot make it. :D
Anyway after that we took bus home change. Crystal went leah's house change.
Then met at serangoon mrt. They talk till damn loud i also noe when they coming then walk to escalater meet them lol.
Anyway wanted go watch movie but in the end change mind go orchard road walk walk.
So go walk here walk there untill damn tired...
Went wisma eat lunch and saw Tina!
Then we went heeren for aircon.
Then we walk up escalater and walk down got like this group of bloys like following us so we like disiao them like run to see bag and all then walk here walk there untill damn long then finally they catch us ask for Crystal's number. LOL
The guy totally CMI ok as in CANNOT MAKE IT at all. Look like some twenty year old person. :)
After that we went to far east walk here walk there and saw steph. like omg i haven't seen her for like a year.
Anyway after that we go mrt to plaza sing then the group of boys come find us. After that go bunk little while meet vanessa then i go home.

Sat 11 oct
After French went serangoon mrt find leah denise sheryl nessa yilin and crystal celebrate denise b'day.
When all of them came then went Bunk meet Akiko they all.
Then went Cathay wanted watch movie but the movie shaun they all duwan watch and then the other movie timing too late so bought Denise cake go surprise her at the cionema there and we looked like retardes singind b'day song there.
AND WE MANAGED TO GET A VIDEO OF SHAUN FEEDING HER CAKE!!!
then we went plaza there eat kfc, go bunk play then me nessa and yilin went serangoon frolick and pet shop
THE DOG WAS LIKE DAMN FUCKING CUTE AND WE WERE LIKE KEEP ON PLAYING WITH IT.
Then SOMEONE took my phone message her darling michelle i love you! lol then went home lor.
LOL
Happy b'day denise again. How does it feel like boing 14?
LOL

2008-10-09T01:31:00.000-07:00

OMG i noe i long time never post alr but there are EXAMS and they are IMPORTANT. Never mind i shall stop talking cock.
that day kt scold us cos me leah sheryl and crystal make alot of noise and grooming stuff. blah blah then he talk to sheryl say that she mix with us the grades will become like us like that. what he implying? then say we o levels CMI. then say the hair become like mine like that. WTF??? i think i am going to fail BIO. maybe i fail cos he CMI, dunno how to teach. anyway, after that crystal got damn dulan say back till damn rude leah is damn smart ok then he was like ok lor i go check. wth man, she look lian dun mean she IS rite
CHEEBONG!!!
LOL
anyway i think i did ok for maths. once in a lifetime man. and geog cfm get A. :)
Today went subway eat lunch with leah and got married with nessa swinn. (actually i'm her mistress) LOL
never mind i shall stop blabbing

2008-09-15T00:51:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LEAH BESTIE!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU!
Last Sunday
Was totally freaking out ok.
Leah's daddy bought tickets for Avril Lavigne concert. WOOT! I Love my bestie YO!
OK then i was like damn paiseh. Then he brought us out to eat. Went pasta mania. I shared with leah.
Leah went to buy dress after that. Tube dress somemore. Then we both bought the same tube top.
After that Leah's father went toilet with her sisters so me and Leah started walking around. Then i saw kor kor so i called him and leah got abit scared she thought i anyhow call people. LOL then i had to tell her that he was my cousin. LOL.
At the concert i think i actually sang better then usual according to Leah. :D

Saturday
I had french. OMG i think i am becoming better alr. Haha. i am actually starting to enjoy french classes. :)Haha after that took mrt to j8 with shamini. Haha when i got off the mrt my foot went into the platform gap. maybe cos that mrt never say please mind the platform gap :D
After that i went to find present for leah. Me and crystal sharing. In the end bought one starbucks teeshirt and one casper teeshirt. Haha i also bought a mad teeshirt and a 7 11 teeshirt for myself. Then afetr that my mama said that she want buy leah present. LOL. enough to cover for the Avril Lavigne tickets. :) so she bought this swatch watch. :) Hope you like it! After that i had to go buy the cake. :) after that i went home bathe then went Denise house. Everybody there liaos. :) Crystal twinny and and clarissa went back alr. Haha then after that ah boy needed to go so they forced leah kiss him... blah blah. After that he went home blah blah blah. then long story...
Sunday
I went church for 9 am but woke up at 8 45 so hd to rush and all. Then no time to bathe. :( Then went for mass after that went canteen find leah they all. :) Then went up for cat. Felicia was totally mad ok. haha
then i had lunch with my brother and felicia at some coffee shop ;D After that went vivo with family watch movie. I like spilt 1/4 of the popcorn on my seat -.- and my brother was like laughing at me when we were walking out of the cinema. Haha after that went eat dinner then dad found jy ipod earphones so went to buy then after that went home.
Today
Went to school. First 2 periods Maths. Lee Ann Gee today very bad mood. Then when we went into the class she got damn angry cos we made alot of noise. Then made us stand outside of class for like 20 minutes. haha
Then went back into class... Blah blah.
after that lit, we copy notes. i effing want to change place alr lah. i think my group is very boring... No offence guys. :)
After that PE was assessment. haha. can throw the ball intercept and dribble can liao. haha. I partner Methawi and she was like damn tall keep on intercepting my ball ._. hais
Started raining went into shelter. then mrs kong walk pass everybody started cheering. My class mad one. then PE teacher say we very irritating let us go for recess early. Haha.

RECESS!!!!

After that chinese i slack. then homec slack also. Were like talking damn loud about everything in the world.

After that went gym for some briefing then after that follow leah go toilet pierce her smiley then go home. SERIOUSLY there is nothing much happening in my life at the moment.

2008-08-08T03:34:00.000-07:00

LOL,TWIINNY! CRYSTAL HERE (: okays,i did your blog finally :P i renovated it okay.HAHA! ehh,hope you like it! :DDDDDDDDD Okok,i know it's so xtra to like post here,BUT DONT U DARE DELTE THIS POST K.LOL! ehhhhhhhhhhhhh,LOVE U! <3

2008-07-28T04:25:00.000-07:00

OMG!!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!! today was like damn fun larh! ROCKCLIMBING!!! First we wnt through this theory thingy then after that went climb the wall lor! then my brother also rockclimber then he tell me very easy so i also thought very easy! but acctually not lor! wen cher ask four volenteers go up then everybody walk backwards then i was like wth. So me a felicia went first! SUPER SCARY LAH! BUT THEN I MADE IT UP AND DOWN SAFE AND SOUND! anyway after that crystal and ethel both also go! then crystal went all the way up and ethel tired tired so come down rest first. lol then chew also went up! LOL! after that leah go up that time all of us were like pretend mp up there then she like laugh a bit! at first we wanted say matthew up there but then the belayer also called matthew so very paisei so just say mp lor! but in the end she made it all the way up too! at the end of EVERYTHING me and leah wanted try the more difficult one then she ask me go first so i go lor! but then it was like super difficult then i try for so long cnnt go up WTF LAH and cystal also at the other wall then i was like jia you crystal! but then both of us also cnnt go up! (they dun call us twins for nothing you noe!!!)!!!lol! then next week me and leah going to try again! WOO! omg my hand super pain now! lazee type. I try update more often alr kay?

2008-07-17T01:06:00.000-07:00

OMG long time nvr post liaos! Today was just the normal! 2 periods chinese in the morning(leah kenna chase back to her seat cos we tok too much) then after tat got pe! teacher make us run rounds cos she tot our mistake then in the end was her mistake then she was like sorry sorry but then you needed the exercise! we were like wth lah! After tat was he! stupid coursework come again! I hope this time i wun fail alr! After tat recess. At first i din want to eat then recess ending liaos then i go eat! like wth lah! i think i am going mad alr! after that was re! BORING! this time denise laogong join but then still cnnt talk so ya just listen! then was history! now just let me tell you that history is going down for me! i bloody think i am going to fail alr! anw after that maths class ah! aiyo words cnnt describe liaos! dunwan talk bout it! after that phisics denise was like sitting next to me then she keep on asking me sms my mum tell her that i going to pei her go dentist! but today i felt very guai so i was like after school after school how was i supposed to know that my mum came pick me up? anyways aftyer that english then i came home eat, bath then post lor!
PS: I love you my dears!

2008-06-01T17:54:00.000-07:00

Haha; hi all! (:woke up super uber early this morning cos mummy say if want go out must study first. So i bo bian study lo. Then after that leah online so chat with her.... <3> Anyway yesterday Leah's father invite me and family go watch movie so we all go watch lor. But then super pai sei. Then leah told me Crystal ask her go out for her b'day tmr... I was like pang sei ask her nvr ask me and then like 1 minute ltr she call me to ask but then my phone no batt jiou black out. ROFL.4 MORE DAYS TILL MY B'DAY. ;D can't wait sia want to celebrate and get many many many presssies. LOL.
Now better go study so ltr can go out.
Biies All <3

2008-05-22T03:07:00.000-07:00

RAWRRRRRS ALL, lon time no post le. ;D Today was the founders day mass and 70th anniversary mass or smthn like that. Then i was doing the "offertry!( dunno how to spell)dance"It was like effng embaressing larhs. Anyways the went down to canteen slack awhile and she like dunwan talk to me. I dunno wad i did. anyway never mind. later went to homeroom clean up and it was super uber fun then later cutted my leg... :'( never mind anyway(it was not pain ... hehe) After that act les wif cryst. Damn efing retarded and cher was looking at us like something wrong like tt. lazy fingers. post another time.

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2008-05-05T01:11:00.000-07:00

I walk the lonely road,

wanna join me??

NEW blog!

2008-05-05T01:06:00.001-07:00

Thanks to Alison; =)
today was our exam.... tell you more later! gtg!